-crossroad 2-

so...
accounting or auditing?
keep thinkin which line should i go..
most probably will keep moving along accounting..
wanna achieve 5 digits before 28
hmm....
pray that there will be a superb chance for me to change my whole life xD

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Password needed 

...what the..

walaoeh~ tok oso duno arh?
keep uh ah um oh erm...
today my whole speech is like  !@#$%^
even boss have trouble understand wad i wanna talk
or izzit i get nervous.. wtf..
dammit..

-the difference-

i'm helping..
only when they ask..
cause they've been helping me also..
but..
you are helping..
as if it's your problem..
even though it isn't..
helping others to the extend that you can't even help yourself..
and you expect the one you help WILL surely repay back..
this world isn't fair..

what right do you have about commenting my action?
Don't say that i never tell you about this.

if..

if someone you like..
knows that you like him/her..
and knows that you have a bf/gf..
that someone also knows that..
you want to end the relationship..

if that someone met with your bf/gf now..
what would that someone feels?

..seems like..

even though i told myself..

i realise.. if everything turns wrong..

i'm the one that have to be blame..

dang it... 

juz realize i'm the one having the most pressure..

if i don't play my cards correctly..

it will end up both side being hurt..

something...

i got something to say..
but feel like..
if i tell u..
it seems like it may bring another meaning which is not what i intend to..
maybe it's not the right time..
just keep my mouth shut for the time...
might be the best choice at the moment

uh..

how come.. it seems like things have become more complicated a bit..
maybe answering yes wasn't a good idea..
but honestly..
from deep inside my heart, it's a yes.
i don't know when it started..
but it juz come naturally..
i know..
i cant split myself into two to stay on board of two ships..
i know you been through this before...
i swear..
unless 1 side is solved..
i won't hop onto your ship..
and i won't purposely abandon the other ship..
cause i know i don't want both side to be hurt..

hope you don't go on avoiding me

p/s: Strike off above, change my thought after receiving your message 

~New template~

finally found a new template. Kinda suit my styles n likings..

thanks to Pocket

~Attempt the Impossible~

To achieve all that is possible
you must attempt the impossible
To be as much as you can be
you must dream of being more
Believe in yourself and what you dream to be
Though impossible as things may seem,,,
someday, somehow
you'll get through to the goal you have in view
Persist on and always move forward
Tackle all obstacles along the way
Never say " I cannot "
but " I can "
Your dream is the promise of all you can become

~No Goal Beyond Your Reach~

You have the potential to be all you want to be...
Your ablitites, talents and attributes are uniquely yours alone
This world is full of possibilities, there are no limits to what life has to offer to you and as to what you can do
Know yourself - for only you can make your life happy
Trust yourself and use your strength positively
Learn often, work hard
Hang on to your dreams, no matter how difficult
Seek, discover and embrace the richness of every experience
Believe  in yourself that you have all it takes to reach your goal

~give up?~

what the.. still no calls..

since monday i was checkin my phone every 30mins if it ever rings..
but it doesn't..
feels like i'm waiting for the moon to explode...

argh~!!

如果我爱你……

如果我爱你，
而你正巧也爱我。 　 　　
那你生病的时候，
我会去照顾你，陪着你到好。 　　 　　
你骑车的时候，我会要你小心一点，还要你到的时候打个电话跟我说。 　　
你忘了吃晚餐的时候，我会装做很生气，然后说："你这样会让我担心耶!" 　　
你头发乱了时候，我会笑笑的替你拨一拨，然后，手还留恋的在你发上多待几秒 。 　　
你想哭，我会陪你掉泪，尽管前一刻我的心情其实是雀跃的。 　　 　　
你要笑，我会陪你笑出声，不管我上一秒其实是沮丧的。　　 　　
我在上课的时候，会念念你的名字，想想你的声音。　　　　　　 　　 　　
我在逛街的时候，会想到"啊!你正好缺了这个..." 　　 　　
我在发现了好东西的时候，一定马上想到"一定要你来看看。" 　　 　　
我失眠了之后，听到你也失了眠，会在心里偷偷的傻笑。　　 　　
我在熬夜的时候，接到你只为了说声："不要太累，早点睡了"的电话。 　　
会甜甜的笑着，而且乖乖的去睡。 　　 　　
我在想着你的时候，知道你也在想着我。…… 　　 　　
但是，如果我爱你，
而你不巧不爱我。 　　
那 ----你生病的时候 。　　 　　
我只会打通电话慰问你，不敢奢求待在你身边。　　 　　
你骑车的时候，我只会暗暗的在心中希望你安全。　 　　
你忘了吃晚餐，我只会笑笑的问："为什么不吃阿？"
你头发乱了，我只能轻轻的告诉你："头发乱了喔。"　 　　
你想哭，只能在旁边无奈的轻轻叹气着。　 　　
你想笑，我只能微微的对你笑着。　　 　　
我在上课的时候，还是会念念你的名字，想想你的声音。　　 　　
我在逛街的时候，会想到"是谁帮你买了这个了吧？" 　　 　　
我发现了好东西的时候，会无奈的想着"会是谁告诉你这个好消息呢？" 　　
我失眠之后，会躲着不让你看见我的黑眼圈。　　 　　
我在熬夜的时候，不敢期待会有电话声，响起来.. 　　
我在想着你的时候，会想到，这时的你，是想着谁呢?…… 　
如果雨之后还是雨，如果忧伤之后仍是忧伤，
请让我从容面对这别离之后的别离，
微笑地继续去寻找，一个不可能出现的你。

...waiting for an answer...

..went for interview on 1/4/2010. was thinking of changing to audit line.. hmm
was really really nervous before the interview. receive a call at the evening, saying that i will need to go for an interview. i was like.. omg? i havnt even prepared yet. juz sent in my resume the day before. and i was still in the office, and worst of all, my boss is in front of me, flipping through the files. Lucky enough, she wasn't listening to my conversation.. haha.
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reach the location that day... 1 hour earlier than the appointment time. It took me exactly 1 hour to reach there.. after searching high n low for it ..
anyways, i took my time exploring the area, not much to see though.. feel like not really a busy place. got bored 30mins after that.. so decided to went in earlier.
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Really sucks.. i rang the door bell, after a short conversation, then was invited to go in. i pull the iron door..
*pull..* huh?
*pull again..*  huh??
*push~ *
it wont open? den heard the voice on the intercom.. "please pull the door.."
*pull*
finally... 
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took 1 hour to finish the whole interview.. 15mins filling up the form, 15mins waiting.. (doing a lot of stupid things. too bored), last 30mins for the interview.
My comments:
i) my speech sux.
ii) The whole interview was relaxing.
iii) Not sure im gonna get the position or not. I hope i will.
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It will be 2 weeks left for me to stay in the current employment if i'm hired. Gonna start a new experience, tougher job and will need a better time planning.


HUAT AR~!! let me strike jackpot~