~on the way to kl, distributing questionnaires~

27/11
i've forgotten bout' something i've hold on to somewhere at a point in my life.. "we live only once.. so live life to the fullest.." dare or not.. want or not.. it's a decision i will have to make in my life.. if i keep on hiding.. i know i will regret..
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If the law of exchange exist in any forms.. my wish.. i wan to exchange all my happy feelings for my future.. exchanging something i cant afford to lose for something that i wan.. that should be a fair exchange..

~dream~

..i was searching high n low..
..searching for something important..
..even i dont know what im seaching for..
..but i only know 1 thing..
..keep searching..
..search and search..
aimlessly...
until i get waken up by my hp alarm.. the theme "Magical Battle[extended version]" keep sounding..

wads the thing im searching for.. im still clueless.. no direction.. no guide.. nothing.. even after i wake up, the dream still keep pop up in my head.. i need a dream seer..

~bored~

suprisingly.. i found myself nth to do during the weekends.. should b playing cabal or COD4 the whole day.. but im getting bored with it.

13/11, out the whole day distributing questionnaire. im reli useless, not socialable type. Not even dare to open my mouth to speak zzz. I still need my groupmate to speak while trying to encourage those ppl to fill in the questionnaire. still much thing for me to learn. Born in the year of tiger, still a coward. dammit. i sux. As she spoke, i learn a bit from her. Introducing, persuading, speaking~ Thank you very much. The next round im gonna gather all my guts n speak. i dun wanna run away again.

14/11, a dad of my classmate pass away. 1am++ on 13th. visited her. she nvr show any emotions before, but i can feel she's reli sad deep inside her heart. but 1 thing i noe, she's strong. She's reli a strong type. Something that i can learn from her too.

15/11,12am. bring my ethic textbook into room. wanna study, but sleep halfway.. i remember i din even read even half a page.. n left the light on until 5am..

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havnt reli fully recovered..
still wondering.. if im not walkin the path that i wan.. where would i go? another unseen path? cant reli tell..
bringing myself to the virtual world everyday.. no satisfaction.. nor happiness.. excited for juz a while, but gone after a few moments.. emotionless..
exactly another 6 1/2mths left..