~watamidoin~

mymindsoblurednow
watthehell
startedtohateeverything
sopain..yet..
i cant think of anything to solve myself..
soshyt
imreallythisuseless?
ineedalight
showmeapath
imstuck
icantgoon
imfakingmyselfeveryday
cantlivealifeliketat

~fail~

feeling down as days past by..
getting worst and worst...
spending most of the time in game world..
trying to get off that feeling..
useless.. dammit..
fail my adv tax..
dont know izit it's a chance for me to proof myself i can be better than this for my last 2 sem..
i realise im getting emotionless..
the smile i carry everyday seems like fake..
i cant think of anything bout my future...

~drifting~

im still lost..
gonna drift along with time..
until i found new hope..
duno when i will find it..
much more relieve now..
but still stressing..
thinking of future yesterday while gazing at the scenery in sg long..
..
dammit..
crying again..

~dear diary~

keep visit the "dear diary" thread in asiasoft forumites recently...
reli lost....
negatives thought keep surging into my mind..
feel like i cant control it..
mayb im thinking the other way round before..
im falling..
cant climbup..
started to hate this life...
im crying deep within me again...

hate it...

~hurt~

i realise..
im crying deep down within me..
im lost..
heart crying.. but tears dried up..
i duno wad to do..
drifting along wif life without destination..
im reli lost...