~(-.-~) ~(-.-)~ (~-.-)~

havnt reli fully recovered..
still wondering.. if im not walkin the path that i wan.. where would i go? another unseen path? cant reli tell..
bringing myself to the virtual world everyday.. no satisfaction.. nor happiness.. excited for juz a while, but gone after a few moments.. emotionless..
exactly another 6 1/2mths left..

~watamidoin~

mymindsoblurednow
watthehell
startedtohateeverything
sopain..yet..
i cant think of anything to solve myself..
soshyt
imreallythisuseless?
ineedalight
showmeapath
imstuck
icantgoon
imfakingmyselfeveryday
cantlivealifeliketat

~fail~

feeling down as days past by..
getting worst and worst...
spending most of the time in game world..
trying to get off that feeling..
useless.. dammit..
fail my adv tax..
dont know izit it's a chance for me to proof myself i can be better than this for my last 2 sem..
i realise im getting emotionless..
the smile i carry everyday seems like fake..
i cant think of anything bout my future...

~drifting~

im still lost..
gonna drift along with time..
until i found new hope..
duno when i will find it..
much more relieve now..
but still stressing..
thinking of future yesterday while gazing at the scenery in sg long..
..
dammit..
crying again..

~dear diary~

keep visit the "dear diary" thread in asiasoft forumites recently...
reli lost....
negatives thought keep surging into my mind..
feel like i cant control it..
mayb im thinking the other way round before..
im falling..
cant climbup..
started to hate this life...
im crying deep within me again...

hate it...

~hurt~

i realise..
im crying deep down within me..
im lost..
heart crying.. but tears dried up..
i duno wad to do..
drifting along wif life without destination..
im reli lost...

~let me pass~

3 subjects.. im not sure whether will pass these 3 or not.. but plz... let me pass... if cant.. hope i can make better decision in the future....

God help me..

~o~

i posted this in silvericejournals:

If u stand still
nothing changes
but if u take even a step foward
i have a feeling something will change
&
something good will happen

i wont care anymore if i ever fall down... juz need to get up and move foward.. i know i wont regret this..

ps: woots~ a 60% gain.. still short of $40 to par wif opening balance smooth sail today~

~stressssssssssssssssssssssss~

UBAF3013 ADVANCED ACCOUNTING PRACTICE.
10/09/2008 Wednesday, 1400, 2.5 hours.
Guide me God. im tryin my best to overcome this paper. help me